Silent Steps

Since I was a kkkkid I awlays walked very silently. My mother still tells me how I would tell hes "Ssshhh, mãe fala baixo". I wonder why was I always trying to be so quiet. Each step that I took had to be as noiseless as possible. So much that as I grow up in school or other places I would accidentally sneak behind or to the side of a friend or collegague and they would have a jump scare when they realised that I was there. I felt like a ninja. Somehow I thought that there might come a time when not making noise would be critical for survival. So for me it was a form of training. Besides that I always wanted to just be unnoticed, invisible, appear only when I wanted to. As a 12th house dominant maybe I just feel more like myself while keeping part of my world secret. I had to protect my world at all costs, with the risk of losing my freedom otherwise. Keeping my freedom secret worked for some time. Umtil then I had to give the impression that I was following all the orders. Deep inside I knew that there was something about me that if I showed people would bring me trouble. I just don't remember where I learned that.